finally done with finals and allnighters. what a relief! i feel like an elephant is off my shoulders. just got my chem grade and was 6 points off an A- in the class. so i can say i'm pretty dang mad at myself, but that just means i'm going to work harder next quarter (with new studying habits) and make the cut.
happy to be back in town! but almost everything lately has been a rush. and a mess, but i'm glad everything's been cleaned up. i wish i would stop thinking so much, sit back, and just believe that not everyone is a lying, cheating, & unappreciative bleep. relax tiffany!
genuine, loving, thoughtful, caring, & PATIENT. thank you<3
'tis the season to be jolly and that's what i'm going to be! the weather's been a tad too chilly for my liking, but it's okay it just gives me more of a reason to snuggle with big butt. my eyes grew wide when i saw the holiday shopping hours! damn. i can't wait to hit the mall and shop 'til i drop.
i'm leaving for bear mountain tomorrow with some high school friends! i'm pretty dang excited. but this also means i'm parting with boyfrienddd. gosh, we're so gross, but i loveloveloveee it. :)
so my mental checklist became too long. here it is in fine print!
checklist (4 days, 3 nights):
ipod
camera
hygiene stuff
pajamies
sleeping bag
chapstick from my baby!
2 longsleeves
3 pairs of socks
thermal pants & long sleeves
2 hoodies
1 sweater
beanie
goggles
snow jacket
snow pants
snowboard
boots!
i hope i'm not missing anything. my phone's getting fixed so i'm pretty much tech-less. and there's no internet in the mountains.
'til friday.
i should be asleep but insomnia has caught me once again.
i really do think i think too much for my own good. bad trips and memories always manage to resurface. they forcefully grab me by the ankles and yank me down to a strapped seat where i can see, in plain view, the possible horrors that could spill on the beautiful canvas in front of my fearful eyes. it is then that i wish to retreat under my fragile shell. why is that my mind always plays these horrible games with me? surely the origin can be traced back to a haunting memory that lives and boils inside my skin.
stop it.
now, where's my sleeping pills?
i am an official shop-a-holic and might need professional help.
i never want to host a party again because i stress excessively.
i love my hometown friends.
i am anticipating final exams next week.
i want to attend prelude.
i want to dance my fat off.
i itch to go shopping. shit.
i need to fix my abnormal biological clock.
i will destroy and ninja anyone who tries to hurt my loves.
i am a happy girl.
i love and adore my boyfriend.
