it's definitely time for change. a year for new changes.

i realized i gradually began to lose contact with several close friends. actually, i realized this a while back but have never done anything about it and i'm sorry. my compassion and love toward them have never changed, but time seemed to always be my nemesis. but even that isn't an excuse. if you really care someone, you'd take the time to see how they're doing - right? in the end, i conclude with the statement of "i tried!" if i could, i would spend a day with each and every one of my beloved friends and tell them how i wish the best for them because they truly deserve it. i would tell them to live their dreams because they're invincible and that they have my unconditional support. just know that i love you guys no matter how long we don't exchange words or how far we're apart. just know that i do care.

i'm not sure if i truly like this place just yet. but of course, how could it ever compare to the comfort of home? people in the supermarkets and streets with dull faces just pull on my heart's strings. people seem to go through the motions of life. they do things just for the sake of doing. happiness is not a common disease.

in close examination of my body, i really need to shed some pounds. however the only pounds i'd wish for are british pounds - in my bank account. ha ha. anyway, i really need to stop loading on the snacks and start piling on the greens. but really, how could you eat healthy at a college cafeteria? munch on frozen packaged lettuce leaves everyday? order overpriced vegetable wraps from time to time? what is there to eat?! when a girl's stressed, her teeth needs something tasty to grind on. and what about exercise? sadly, i've never been that dedicated 24 hour fitness gym girl. nu uh. to me, exercise comes in the form of studio classes, dance performances, competitions, and team conditioning. is that feasible now? i think not. i think i will stick pictures of overrated skinny hot girls on my wall for motivation. i really don't want to end up as an obese american...

according to fiscal evidence, i for certain have a spending problem. i definitely need to familiarize myself with coupons and embrace sales - even though the non-sale items always tend to catch my eye first. darn those ingenuous producers. yet, everyday i sit hopeful in holding a canon rebel in my hands and calling it my own baby... i really, really appreciate the aesthetics. everything is just so beautiful and gorgeous in its own way. everyday something beautiful catches my eye, and i would just foolishly hope that my eyes could somehow capture and print these kodak moments.

"you two are seriously a match made in heaven." "you two are so meant for each other." "you and dennis have something really special." "i want a love that you guys have." i honestly didn't believe in fairy tales until now. i'm happily living in one, yet it's complete reality at the same time. it's amazing how we cannot get sick of each other at the rate we see each other - not that i want to of course! 

"if you were a booger, i'd pick you - dennis k chen!" - tiff.