i realized everytime i got something heavy on my mind or something i'm nervous about, i dream about it. like how i dreamed about doing titration problems before the chem midterm. like how i dreamed about blocking for my dance company. shit! and not long ago i was dreaming about next year's life in the wondrous apartments. i think it's definitely the next step to becoming an adult. i hear people talking about getting apartments off campus, and i definitely can't wait for that. so in the near future, we got to pay for our bills - electricity, water, rent, gardening? it's a daunting task to be a mature adult but all very exciting at the same time. so next year, we finally get to have our own space, our own privacy - but what i'm most excited about is the kitchen. i can't begin to imagine what kind of goodies i can cook and bake, and since it's so hot nowadays, maybe a blender would be nifty?
i think i honestly need to hit the tan booths. or something to get rid of my paleness so i can leisurely and confidently wear shorts and expose my limbs. it's definitely a self-conscious type of thing for me. the only continent i dare wear shorts and blind passerby's is asia, where pale bodies are worshiped. i walked about today in the morbid heat and all i could think about was stripping off all my clothes. maybe i should invest in a few dresses? my mom used to tell me that i dress too boyish. i hope that's not true anymore 'cause femininity is sexy. duh. i just need a shopping spree for spring and summer clothes. i want to hit the mall soon but for now, i've got to hit the books.. :(
